Suddenly I don't feel so brave anymore. I've always liked to think that I'm ready and up for change but sometimes I think I am always. just. pretentiously adventurous. And because I seem to be programmed to never reach fulfillment, I've always seen change as at least a step forward. To what, I don't even know. I constantly think it'll do me good but yet I never seem to be able to deal with it well when it comes. Like now.