I really need to stop my obsession with reading self-help articles. They're leading me to self-help books and I really have a lot of better things to read.. My mind has been filled with a mess of advice I keep trying to abide by but I think it's coming to the point where I feel miserable from it all which defeats the purpose of having them in the first place.

Lately I came to a strange realization that the reason behind a certain behaviour of mine comes with taking an eye for an eye. It's sort of unintentional because it's just convenient to do so with circumstances. I guess when I get thoroughly hurt I also become graceless. Or I already was to begin with.

Anyway. 20 days to finals, 1 more research paper (disgustingly 35%?!) and 1 more presentation (30%??) to go.. Hm feeling surprisingly calm. Have I given up for this sem, I don't know but it sure feels like it. I'm just so sick of school and numb from this whole routine. Trying not to let this interfere with my attempts of making my days wholesome~ With the amount of time you spend telling yourself (and others) how busy you are, you could've baked a fucking pie.